Monday, December 20, 2010

Let's put it to a vote!

We have our next big ultrasound scheduled for Tuesday, January 4th, and I'll be just about 16 weeks along. Even though my doctor isn't promising they'll be able to tell genders, I've got my hopes way up! So I added a voting bar on the right side - I want to see what y'all think our babies will be! This idea was shamelessly stolen from another blog I read, so some of you may recognize it.

You have two weeks to vote before the ultrasound; let's see how close we all get to the truth! I honestly have no idea what they'll be. Adam's family is a bunch of boys; my extended family is dominated by girls. I find myself hoping a little that they're boy/girl, for the sole reason that we have a boy and a girl name picked out that we LOVE, and I want to be able to use them both! Obviously, I'll be thrilled no matter what. If we end up with two of the same gender, I can dress them alike until they can't stand it anymore. :o)

Thanks to all of you who continue to celebrate this experience with us - we are so grateful for the privilege of bringing these babies into the world!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Ugh.

I was apparently WAY too premature in thinking that 1st trimester symptoms were coming to an end. This morning as I was getting ready for work, I threw up my entire breakfast. Sigh. I actually think I probably caused it. My doctor has prescribed a bunch of vitamins for me to take, and I'd been previously taking them before bed, but all the large pills have been making me gag. So I thought maybe if I took them in the morning before I ate anything, I wouldn't gag as badly. That is true - the actual act of taking the pills this morning was much easier. But the end result - major barf - was not good. So back to the evening I go...sigh.

I'm also a bit discouraged because of the weight gain issue. It's really silly, but I've been flirting with a certain milestone weight - 120 - for about two weeks, and I just can't seem to maintain it. I FINALLY hit 120 a couple of days ago, in the morning, before eating (when we're at our lightest), and I was so excited! But the next day, I was back down to 119. Argh! I know in a few months when I'm leaving 160 behind I'll probably look back on this and laugh, but right now it just seems like every pound is a hard-fought battle. It's also very funny to see this in perspective - I have definitely never been so frustrated about not being able to GAIN weight! Pregnancy is a strange time of life!

Ok, enough complaining. Adam and I are getting so excited about Christmas vacation! We are spending a week over Christmas with my parents in Vegas, and then flying to Kansas for a week over New Years for Adam's cousin's wedding. I just love this time of year, and I can't wait to spend so much time with the ones we love. We have incredible things to celebrate this year, so it feels even more special than usual.

And of course I need to include a baby update! I passed the 13-week mark yesterday. Our little ones are, according to my pregnancy email, the size of large shrimp. Personally, I think that's stupid - shrimp are not a fruit! I do not like inconsistency! So Adam and I have decided that they're kiwis this week. A couple of really interesting tidbits - they have fingerprints now (so cool!), and if either are girls, they have all their eggs for their entire lifetime already. So I may have the building blocks of grandbabies in my tummy, which is very neat but a little strange!

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas holiday and remember the main reason for celebration - the ultimate gift of the life of Jesus Christ. We are so blessed.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Bye bye, 1st trimester!

I can't believe it. I passed the 12-week mark yesterday, so I'm now officially in the 2nd trimester! (Well, according to some sources. Others say 14 weeks, but I'm picking this one and sticking with it.) I know the 2nd trimester brings with it promises of many good things: less fatigue, less sickness, vastly lowered risk of miscarriage, etc. And while I've actually been more tired this week than last, I love the promise of changes hopefully coming soon!

Our babies are now the size of limes, and my tummy is the size of a basketball. Not a whole basketball yet, but like I sliced off a third of a basketball and stuck it under my shirt. I'm still able to wear several non-maternity shirts and dresses, but I am exclusively in maternity pants now. And lucky me, a couple of days ago a new pregnancy symptom visited me - swollen feet! It wasn't too bad, but after a long day of sitting in meetings and not being able to get up and walk very often, my shoes were definitely tight and my feet tender to the touch. I've started trying to grab an extra chair in meetings for my feet, and get up and walk at least every half hour, but it's difficult sometimes. I know this symptom will likely get much worse, so I want to establish those good habits now before I REALLY swell!

I also need to update on our Program for Multiples day Monday! It was amazing; I'm so glad this program is offered in Houston and that we got to participate. I love our clinic; I feel very taken care of. We got a looooong ultrasound (~1 hour) where everything related to our babies was measured and photographed: heads, legs, arms, hands, stomachs, intestines, umbilical cords, placentas, etc. It was really neat to just sit in there and watch our babies on the screen for such a long time. They are super adorable (in my unbiased opinion)!

We also got a genetics consultation, where our detailed family history was taken, and every tiny question we had was answered. Adam has a birth defect that required surgery when he was an infant (and left a ridiculously huge scar on his stomach!), and I have a cousin with Down's syndrome, so we talked at length on those subjects. Thankfully, neither of these issues affect our babies' risk because neither are typically hereditary, so that was a great relief.

Next was our consultation with the dietition. Oh, boy. I want to reiterate that I'm so glad we got to do this, but this part wasn't fun. I knew I would have to gain a lot of weight. I had no idea how much. First, there's the twin aspect - more weight than a usual pregnancy. Then, there's the "skinny Erin" aspect - I'm just barely in the category of underweight, but that added more weight to the goal. Finally, an additional 7 pounds is tacked on when a twin pregnancy is your first pregnancy, just for fun I think. So the final number is...wait for it...53 - 74 pounds.

When I heard this number, my mind just went blank. I know it seems like fun, right? Permission to eat whatever you want for 9 months? But it intimidates the heck out of me. I'm really not sure I'll be able to hit this number! But all I can do is try my best, so that's what I'll do.

The good news is that our babies are healthy and still measuring ahead of schedule, so that's really what it all boils down to. We are extremely blessed!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

11 weeks

I know I already posted once today, but I wanted to get back on track with my weekly progress emails. We are 11 weeks today - rapidly approaching the end of the 1st trimester! I can't believe how quickly the time is going. According to our pregnancy email, the babies are the size of figs. However, due to our appointment yesterday, we know exactly how big the babies are: 1.67 inches and 1.75 inches. Keep in mind that measurement is from crown to rump, so it doesn't include their legs. It's incredible how fast they grow!

This week I've started to notice a gradual decrease in symptoms - praise the Lord! Though I blessedly have had an easy 1st trimester, it's still wonderful to begin having a little more energy, fewer food aversions, and fewer mood swings. I count myself extremely lucky at the easy time I've had so far - my doctor was shocked when I told him yesterday I hadn't had much nausea. Apparently almost all women pregnant with multiples struggle with morning sickness big-time, and many end up losing weight from not being able to keep food down. I have tossed my cookies - wait for it - once. Unbelieveable. And I have steadily gained weight since about week 6, though not that much yet! I'm crediting good heredity for this blessing; my mom didn't have nausea during her pregnancy, either. Thanks, Mom!!

Beyond that, everything else is going great as well. Adam and I are starting to shop around for the big purchases - new car, double stroller, etc. We're somewhat specific on which models/brands we want, but we're still bargain-hunting and hoping to find good deals. Anyone know of a 2005 or newer Land Rover for less than $10k? ;o) (Hint: you don't. We've given up this dream.)

New Clinic

I had my first appointment with my new doctor in the new clinic, and it was AWESOME! I am so glad we followed our gut and switched; to say it was a "better fit" than the previous place is a gross understatement. From the moment we walked in, everything just felt right. The building, waiting room and clinic rooms were very nice and comfortable, literally everyone we interacted with was super friendly, and the whole experience overall was just great.

My new doctor may be my favorite doctor I've ever met. He and his nurse both seemed as excited about our babies as we were! He sat with us for almost an hour talking about what to expect and answering our bazillion questions. In addition to his enthusiasm, I was really comforted by how he's approaching our pregnancy - with cautious optimism. He made sure to warn me about all the issues I'm at greater risk for due to the twins, and how we will keep an eye on these issues by having more clinic visits and ultrasounds. EXACTLY what I was looking for.

The one yucky part of the visit was that I had to get like 4 huge vials of blood taken - blech. But honestly, after getting blood taken 3 times a week during our in-vitro process, I think I can handle every few months! All for the babies, right?

One of the best parts of the visit was that we got a surprise ultrasound! We knew we'd get one this coming Monday at our big Program for Multiples day, but we didn't expect to get to see the babies yesterday. It was incredible. We hadn't seen them since 7 weeks, and they are HUGE! We could clearly see their heads, arms and legs, and one of them was practically doing gymnastics. He/she was kicking and flailing those arms and legs and doing flips. Somehow, seeing one of our little ones move made this whole thing even more real to me. These aren't just fruit-sized little organs in my body that 7 months from now will magically become babies - these are our babies already.

Of course, the absolute best part of the visit was the news that both our babies are perfectly healthy and on track (one is 1 day ahead; one is 3 days ahead). It is so comforting to know they are safe and growing inside my belly. I continue to pray every day for their safety, and every day we are given with them is a blessing.

And of course, I couldn't end this post without some photos! Enjoy! (10 weeks 6 days)

I'm having trouble with photo labels, so here's the legend:

1. Baby A
2. Baby B
3. Baby A and B (B looks a bit like a ghost baby; because of their placement, it's difficult to get them both in the same shot)














Monday, November 29, 2010

Catch-up Post

I was chastised by a friend at church yesterday because I didn't post an update last week - sorry about that! I'm not as good at keeping up with this thing when I'm not at work. I'd better improve that before I go on maternity leave...I don't want to miss chronicling the lives of my new little twinkies! I promise I'll do better over Christmas break; that will be the next big test.

As of last Wednesday, we were at 10 weeks, and our babes were the size of kumquats. The size of huh-what? That's what I said, at least! I did a little research on what the heck a kumquat is, and here you go, for your edification:

kum·quat 
[kuhm-kwot] –noun
1. a small, round or oblong citrus fruit having a sweet rind and acid pulp, used chiefly for preserves.






















Other developments of note this week were that our babies now have fingernails and hair. This is completely amazing to me! Our babies are growing so fast! (and are hopefully less orange than this photo, teeheehee). Adam and I are consistently blown away with the miracle of this pregnancy, and honestly all pregnancies, because the gift of life is always a miracle.

I have my first prenatal appointment at the new clinic tomorrow, so I'll post another update soon. I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving; we certainly did!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Switching Care

It's official - I have switched my prenatal care from my previous obgyn to a specialist group with another clinic. I am so happy; I think it will be a much better fit. My previous obgyn was very laid-back and didn't want to worry me with a lot of details, which for some people would probably be great, but for me was exactly the opposite of what I wanted. I like to be completely informed of all that could possibly go wrong, everything I need to consider, all precautions I need to take, so that I am mentally prepared for anything. I was definitely not going to get this at the previous clinic.

The new clinic I found treats all multiple pregnancies as high-risk, so I will get more ultrasounds and regular consults with maternal fetal medicine specialists (high-risk obgyns). This makes me very happy. My first appointment is the week after Thanksgiving; I so hope it goes well!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Baby Bortka Bump!

I finally remembered to download my photos, so here are baby bump pictures thus far! (Or should I say babIES bump, haha!)


5 Weeks



















6 Weeks



















7 Weeks


























8 Weeks



















9 Weeks
























We started out the first week taking photos in the future nursery (which is currently the junk room as you can see), thinking it would be fun to watch the nursery progress as I progressed! Then, we changed our minds on what room to make the nursery, and decided the current guest room would be a boring background for photos. So we switched to our photo wall, thinking that would be a neat background. Now that I see the photos enlarged, I think that background is too busy, so we'll probably switch again. Oh well, so much for consistency!

I hope you all enjoy watching me become a hippo over these next several months! :o)

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Baby Grapes

I am officially 9 weeks along today, and my weekly pregnancy email informed me I have grape-sized babies floating around in me. I've spent most of the morning trying to imagine a tiny person the size of a grape, complete with tiny eyes, tiny arms and legs, tiny feet...it's pretty difficult to imagine! I also think it's somewhat ridiculous how much my stomach has grown to accomodate two grapes - it seems completely unnecessary. My stomach doesn't grow this much when I eat two grapes...and yes, I know that it's different; I'm just being a little silly. ;o)

I've read through all my pregnancy and twin books up to the childbirth chapters, so I feel pretty knowledgable about what to expect the rest of this pregnancy. I'm waiting a few months to dive into the childbirth, nursing, and bringing baby home chapters; I don't want to overload myself with information! I feel some comfort knowing that I've done extensive research and have at least been exposed to all the possible symptoms, complications, and issues that could happen. I like feeling prepared...

Speaking of prepared, only 2 1/2 more weeks until my big Program for Multiples appointment! I can't wait to get my detailed consultations with the high-risk obgyn and the nutritionist, and ESPECIALLY get another ultrasound! I cannot wait to see how our babies have grown, what they look like at the 11.5 week mark, and mostly just get some peace of mind that everything is progressing the way it should.

On the symptom front, things are getting a bit more difficult as time goes on. I am more tired, have weirder food aversions, and am more gaggy as each day passes. For posterity's sake, I will record that I have gotten sick once so far - Friday evening. Apparently bananas foster was a bad idea (don't worry, we made it non-alcoholic). I'm thankful to have had no other barf sessions since then, but I'm definitely counting down the days until the 2nd trimester in the hopes that I'll feel more like myself. Don't get me wrong - I'll go through any amount of inconvenience for the benefit of these two babies. It's just a bit difficult to be an engineer when you're too tired to think. Turns out you need your brain and some energy to do this job; who knew!! :o)

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

8 weeks today...

...and feeling those early pregnancy symptoms big-time. Fatigue, mood swings, nausea, sort of all of a sudden today. It may be because I pushed myself a little harder yesterday than usual. I didn't get to squeeze in a nap, and I didn't get to bed until - wait for it - 8:30! Gasp! Hehe, it's funny that that qualifies as pushing myself too hard, but in my current state, it definitely does.

My big plans for the evening are to go home, put on my jammies, eat, and sleep, and as little else as possible. Hopefully I'll be back to my chipper (well, only mildly exhausted) self tomorrow.

On the baby front, our little blueberries are now kidney beans, which aren't as cute as blueberries. But it's exciting that they're growing! My belly hasn't changed much in the last couple of weeks that I can tell; maybe others would say differently, I'm not sure. I need to remember to post photos up here...so bad about that!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

New OB...maybe?

I had my first prenatal appointment yesterday. To say it went great would be...well, it would be a lie. There's nothing wrong with me or babies; that wasn't the problem! I just...didn't feel very comfortable with my doctor or the approach she was taking with my pregnancy. It's probably me being silly, but I do want to find someone that I "click" with, and it was not her.

So I did some research, and it turns out the Baylor clinic downtown has a special program for multiples! It's a one-day deal with several appointments: a high-level ultrasound, nutritional consult, meeting with a genetics counselor, and consultation with a maternal fetal medicine specialist (high-risk obgyn). I signed up, and am going in early December. I am really looking forward to getting some answers geared directly for women expecting multiples; I hope it helps me have more peace of mind! I'm still contemplating switching obgyns for the duration of my prenatal care; hopefully this one-day clinic will help me decide whether that's necessary.

I know I'm probably taking a very conservative, risk-averse approach to this pregnancy compared to some other women, but hey - I'm the momma, and Momma's gonna get her way! :o)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

7 weeks

We are officially 7 weeks along today! We had our final visit with the fertility clinic today before switching over to our OB. It was somewhat bittersweet: though getting to see the OB means that we are out of the woods of infertility and back in the land of normal pregnancies (yes!), I think we'll really miss the fertility clinic. Our doctor, the two nurses, and the receptionist are all so personable and kind; they even know us by name at this point! They have walked with us through some pretty tough situations, and it was with their knowledge and expertise that we are so blessed to be pregnant now.

Maribel, the nurse who saw us today, made me promise to stop by in the coming months so they can all see my growing belly! How sweet is that? Thankfully, we won't be too far away - my OB's office is on the same floor in the same office building. So Maribel, I will definitely be stopping by. Thanks for being so great through the whole process!

We also had another ultrasound today. We couldn't believe how much our little ones have grown in only a week! They look awesome, and their little heartbeats were clear and unmistakable on the screen. One is measuring right on track, and the other is 2 days ahead! Looks like we may have a little overachiever on our hands! I unfortunately don't have an electronic copy of the ultrasound photos, but I'll put them up here as soon as I get it.

My weekly pregnancy email tells me that our babies are about the size of blueberries right now. So, my little blueberries, keep growing! Can't wait to see your picture again!

Monday, November 1, 2010

It's Official!

After more than three years of disappointment, tears, incredible lessons of peace and patience, pills, needles, surgeries, and prayers, God has still managed to shock us with overabundant blessings: we are expecting TWINS!

For this new exciting chapter in our lives, I've decided to start a new blog to track our progress. Please feel free to follow our story. I want to make sure I capture as much as possible of this incredible experience, one I honestly never thought I'd get to have.

Of course, we wouldn't be complete without some photo evidence (ultrasound at 5 weeks 2 days):
















I never get tired of looking at those little dots!